i guess it's due from to explain the context in which they were written, so briefly i will attempt to show you: upon arriving home from africa, i lost my friends, some family and most importantly, myself. i became negative towards everything and just pushed everything away from me. fast forward to now, where it's just me now. i'm all i have left and it's hard to fight for your feelings and backtrack so much, but what else is left for me?
so i've been writing, and you've been reading. and i don't think i've completely washed myself of negativity but i certainly have learned to filter it. i know who is important to me, i know who i love and there is no need to let my past memories or my pessimism or anything stupid interfere. that old, fun guy isn't vanished completely. but it took some things for him to learn, and i have learned and will continue to learn. maybe nobody believes me, but i know i am growing happy.
i know i am happy now, and i know i have grown.
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