a new name for everything

"and even if you can't see me, i am right beside you every step of the way. my love for you is everlasting. i think about what you might be doing everyday, and go to sleep dreaming your arms are snug around my waist."

- you

so do i.

but everything is going to be alright. i've been smiling, writing, biking, reading.

there was a letter you wrote to me when i was across the sea. "should i feel in the wrong to want to be held, to want to make love rather than fuck, to ask again if you're free just in case or to turn your lips to mine to kiss you? whatever happened to the shaun who would pull me in closer in bed? or the shaun who would take the time to write me notes and make me tapes? the shaun that would make me feel beautiful when we would make love? that guy. i know he's there, he always has been. you've just forgotten about him, and shouldn't have. i miss that side of you. bring him back. please!"

and you know what? you're not wrong. you never were wrong. you continued to write...

you wrote to me and said "so shaun, do me proud, stay strong." and this is me staying strong.

this is me bringing him back. and i fucking know you're there... just bring you back, please.

come home to me sweet girl, let me shower you in my love.

i need my heart.